i got a phone call from my psychiatrist today regarding some info i asked her about NA meetings in the surrounding areas, which ones are best, etc. i don't think that sobriety will be very tough for me, but it'll be nice to have a place where i can go to lean on people if i need it. who knows... i might start going to meetings on a weekly basis. it'll give me something to do... something to occupy my day.
and i'm going to start working out of my apartment. apparently my brother is working with over thirty clients right now, trying to get plans drawn up for them all, and things at the business are falling behind in the areas where i used to cover all of the slack. so i'll be able to design and update brochures, update the website, and do other random tasks from home and come in once or twice a week to work on getting things printed out and such. plus, i'll be making the same amount of money i was making before, so i'll actually be able to pay my (ridiculously expensive) rent. (not to mention the fact that this is necessary because i'm completely broke.)
i need routine. i need to stop sleeping all day. i need to get up at a certain time every day and take my meds, and do the same at bed time. otherwise my life will never start to piece itself back together. most of all, i just need to get adrian out of my mind and stop worrying about what he's posting in his journal. i know in my heart what did and didn't happen, as much as he wants to deny it, and that's all that matters. i have come to terms with the fact that i'll never get the money back he owes me, and he probably took things that weren't his when he left, too-- that's okay. it's over. and i need to stop stressing myself out over all the petty crap. i have someone wonderful in my life, and i need to focus my energy on that.
time will heal everything else.